JESSE IHDE

Mother Teresa said, “I have never had clarity; what I have always had is trust.  So I will pray that you trust God.”  This makes me a little sad.  I desire clarity and if God didn’t give it to Mother Teresa, I think the rest of us are assuredly screwed on the issue.  So bare with me in the moments when I miss a step. I’ve been waiting to hit the publish button for more than six years, but I believe successful failures have brought me to some of the most beautiful moments in my life so I’m willing to take the risk.

During the past six years, I’ve had two kids, read every book I could manage in between naps and instead of sleeping, continued running a marketing company with my sister, became an elder’s wife (what does that even mean?!), started seeing a therapist…again, rewrote my vows, drank 247 gallons of coffee, had my husband as a stay at home dad for a year and completely gave up on sleep as a reality in my life.  Like Taylor Swift says, “We are never ever ever getting back together.”  That is me and sleep.  “Like ever.”

I subscribe to the Dr. Seuss model of “think and wonder, wonder and think.”  As a work from home mom, my mind is literally about to explode with all the thinks I am thinking.  About clients and coffee creamer.  Diapers and deadlines.  Accounting.  Creative.  ABCs and 123s.  Add a pinch of Pinterest, a music mix featuring Eminem, Pink, Mumford and Sons, Kelly Clarkson, Les Miserables and Gungor and I’ve officially got a buzz.

I have taken conference calls in my closet and brought my children to video shoots and clients offices.  My house is a mess six days a week because once a week someone special comes to clean.  Even though I love to cook, we eat out more than we eat in because dinnertime, despite being consistent in reality, shocks me almost every day.  I absolutely do not have it together.  This is not a message about getting your life together.  I don’t even know what that means.

I am on a journey and in process and sharing it with you so together we can think. And wonder. And wonder.  And think.

“Make visible what, without you, might perhaps never have been seen.” –Robert Brown