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Yearly Archive: 2014

Thursday

2

October 2014

Fall in My Head

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by | October 2, 2014
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I am looking forward to the fall.  My idyllic self loves to fantasize about how perfect fall will be.  Pumpkin spice lattes and chunky cable knit scarves with jeans and knee high boots.  In my head, this is how I look for three months straight: All the sudden it doesn’t matter how dirty my hair is or how many days in a row I’ve worn my favorite skinny jeans because baby it’s cold(ish) outside and I’ve got these boots to distract you from all that’s gone wrong. There will be nights by the outdoor fire pit with the kiddos drinking hot …

Tuesday

30

September 2014

Doubt

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by | September 30, 2014
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This last season has been full of hard.  The dark kind of hard.  Loss of friends hard.  Marriage hard. Moving three times in four months hard.  Insecurity hard.  Finding purpose hard.  Questioning it all. Hard. In this and other seasons of hard, I also have doubts.  And as I process through these doubts in my faith, I recognize I’m rarely doubting if the gospel (the reality of Jesus as the mediator and savior who came to reconcile God to man) is true, but if I am wanting to and willing to live as though it is true. And not in …

Friday

18

April 2014

My Good Friday

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by | April 18, 2014
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In the middle of the night, I woke with an urge to pull Stella close to me.  Josh is traveling for work and Stella covets his spot in our bed.  I didn’t want to disturb her perfect sleep so I just rolled towards her and watched her for a bit and then fell quickly back asleep.  Sometime later, she woke me as she moved her head onto my pillow and angled her long narrow body next to mine. After breakfast and backpacks, I herded the children to their respective days of learning – Stella with her man teacher and Eli …

Wednesday

16

April 2014

My Child

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by | April 16, 2014
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Can you imagine your child walking out of her room in the morning and meandering into the kitchen, blanky and bunny in hand.  Rubbing her eyes and then looking at you with confusion and maybe a tinge of fear.  And then she says, “Who are you?”  Her uncertainty at your identity only begs another question of her own.  “Who am I?” Identity: our daily challenge.  Who is your Father?  Name him.  Say his name out loud.  Jesus.  Acknowledge Him. Think about the things you know about His life.  Think of His mother, Mary, and her brave and daunting journey to …

Tuesday

15

April 2014

On World Vision and my Broken Heart

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by | April 15, 2014
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Two days ago, encouraging the pressure which inevitably broke World Vision’s decision to hire men or women who are in legal same-sex marriages, I saw a pastor in my community tweet that “faithful followers of Jesus must speak out against ‘churches’ who in the name of love embrace that which Jesus doesn’t.” Fascinating. Which issues should we speak out against first? Legalism would be high on my list. As I’ve been reading more bloggers like Rachel Held Evans and Matthew Paul Turner, I begin to believe I’m not as alone in the world as I once was. They have well articulated the strange …